I want to be in touch with my own life.
I struggle, at times,
to feel like I’m actually living my own life.
I’m often so focused on the next hour, the next day, the next weekend…
that it all comes and goes by so fast,
I’m left standing there – wondering where it went.
I just want to be so in love with every moment,
that is causes me to never again feel like, “where’d it go?”
Why does it always take us util it’s too late to realize how good we had in in the first place?
To realize that we had it so good in the life that we had – the person we were back then…
I’m always so focused on the life I want to be living… the person I want to be…
that I let my days fly by without being a part of them – always wishing for the next chapter… the more improved, better ‘me’.
Maybe this chapter is supposed to be amazing,
Maybe this day – even if it feels insignificant – is supposed to be the best day of my life.
Maybe I’m supposed to love who I am now, before I try to “improve” myself.
I would like to take a moment, to write a letter to myself (and all of you.)
You are amazing and so brave. You wake up each day, trying so hard to improve on the cards you’ve been dealt. Sometimes, you don’t feel like it’s fair that everyone else seems to be doing so much better at life than you – and then you feel like a failure.
I truely wish you would see things as I see them. See you as I see you.
You are beautiful. You are more than blessed.
You’ve been given gifts and talents, that were only destined for your hands and your heart.
You are loved. Even more than you will ever be able to comprehend.
If I could reach into your heart and hold it – I would infuse into it the love that I have for you. I would show you how valuable your dreams are, how powerful you are, and how truely great you have been designed.
I know sometimes, you see yourself as a screw up – a failure – deserving of no more than the shitty way you feel now. But all of that is so un-true… the way I see you looks more like this:
- Perfect, exactly as you are. In this moment.
With all your flaws and faults considered – still beautiful and perfectly you.
And I would hope that everyday, regardless how many things you think you need to achieve in order to be someone your proud of, I would hope with every bit of myself that you would truely feel how it is that I see you.
I want you to wake up tomorrow morning, walk over to the mirror and take a moment, with your eyes closed, to remember the list of things I have written above. Give them time to sink into your heart. Imagine those words flowing into your skin, absorbing into every ounce of who you are… Let the fill you with every ounce of love I have for you. Live in that moment – realizing all the greatness that flows through you.
Let the words sink in.
And then, when your ready – open your eyes… and see yourself through the eyes of love: beautiful – exactly as you are.
–God (and H)
I want to wake up to that tomorrow.
I want to allow them to fill up every ounce of who I am –
I want to believe them so fully, that no one can make me feel otherwise.
I hope that you can feel them too.
Find your strength in who you are.
I hope that you see yourself, exactly as you are.
And love it.